A wishful wish

Frodo : " i wish the ring had never come to me . I wish non of this had happened ......." .

Gandalf : " .......so do all who live to see such times , but that is not for them to decide . All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us " .

Source : the lord of the rings.

I was deeply touched by this line from the movie . I am in the state of frodo right now . I wish many things should had occured differently in my life . But gandalf's words are meaningful ; we can only decide about time we have right now .

I wish i had power to change things by going into past a la " the butterfly effect " . I know all paths have their own effects / side-effects . It's always late when past decisions are reviewed . The judges ( people ) are interested only with synopsis and present status of the situation , and decision making is fast in this case . The verdict they make , like always remains , " see , then only i had told this path is wrong " .

List of wishes are long and it is clearly an unsolvable problem if past is embedded in the wish . Being a techie , I must call this NP-complete problem .Right now i am trapped between future and present ; stagnant times i can say this. I just hope things straighten up and i follow my dreams soon .

Before closing another wish

"hey , do you want to see something ?"
Before mariam (15 years )could answer , Niloufar ( 8 years ) had put her palms and forehead to the ground . She pushed with her soles and then she was standing upside down , on her head , in three point stance .
" can you do that?" she said thickly .
" no ."
Niloufar dropped her legs and put her blouse back down . " i could teach you ," she said , pushing hair from her flushed brow .
( source : a thousand splendid suns )

As a kid i loved doing the upside down stance . I know this must be the case with all my friends ( hai na ? ) I want to enjoy that joy again , i know that is not a possibility unless i sit in "the time machine " :)

bye folks

Of a request , a thank you and the sorry

As the counter is saying , this is my 50th blog entry . So time to think what has been achieved till now , time to smile and and go for virtual party . Here it goes.....


A request
Yesterday i watched last episode of prison break season 4. The concluding episode had one touching song.....i got emotional when the song was playing in background with so many things coming to an end . I dedicate this song to all my friends . Here is lyrics of the song.....
Lay it down slow

if you got dreams in your heart
why don't you share them with me?
And if dreams don't come true
i'll make sure that your nightmares are through

if you got pain in your heart
why don't you share it with me?
And we'll just wait and see
if it's half what it used to be
and lay it down slow
lay it down free
lay it down easy
but lay it on me

if you've got love in your heart
why don't you keep it with mine?
I can't promise a miracle
but i'll always be trying
and lay it down slow
lay it down free
lay it down easy
but lay it on me.

a thank you

time to thank you all for reading / following / commenting . I know i am not a good writer , motivation for writing blog came from words ," all of us are special , so is our writing style ". It felt nice to know so many good people on blog , which is not possible in real life ,at-least for me .thanks to blog world , I am glad i know kajal ( thepinkorchid ), kiran maam ( chammak challo ), ashrita ( satan's darling ). I know many addition to above list will be there in future. Thanks to two ' invisible' followers of my blog . You two are always there with your comments on gtalk .

the sorry

time to say unconditional sorry to friends who felt hurt due to me . Life is too short to live for self . But sometimes life has to go like this . No hard feeling against anyone .

Before closing : be the change you want to see in this world .
Bye world :)

I chose this....

Climax scene from movie the matrix revolutions

agent smith : why mr. Anderson, why ? Why you fall every time to rise again?

Neo : ( rising again to fight ) because i have chosen this.

In life we face difficult situations because we chose to be in that situation.why we chose that path is million doller question , everyone has to answer on their own.

P.s : the matrix is my favourite movie. Did watch all 3 parts 6 times :p

p.p.s : geeta plz leave your link here. Me can't locate your blog :(